From the beginning

Being born with a physical disability I have become used to hearing people refer to me with very odd and somewhat uncomfortable words like BRAVE, MARVELOUS, COURAGEOUS just to name a few.Until my late twenties I was unaffected by the negative response to being referred to in these ways until I came into contact with … Continue reading Courage is NOT a dirty word

Lately my internal landscape has been very dark and similar to a black hole in space. Battling with never ending gloom struggle mentally and physically due to a massive extended period of back pain every day has seemed like I was crawling uphill backwards with a 100 tone back pack on my back. In early … Continue reading Struggle landmark dates and breakthroughs

I’m now at a point in my life where even though I can sit back and pat myself on the back for getting so far since my journey began…well done you made it!! But now I’m at a point where my mind is consumed with thoughts around things like, what next, what is possible, how … Continue reading Masterminding The Matrix and Disproving my deep rooted Belief of the F word(not that one, the other one opposite to success)

As a writer I am revelling in the world that has opened up to me ever since I re invented myself with a new label. I know some people are trying to move away from labels but I see both the negatives and positives of them, Creating my own new label or genre, has really … Continue reading Being honest to others means being true to yourself

Mental Health Does Not Discriminate.   As we enter the middle of May I am reminded that it is mental health awareness month.I feel I have a responsibility to promote this subject and to talk openly about how this subject affects me. I also want to draw attention to those people in the public eye … Continue reading Mental health does not discriminate

So I’m sat here in the living room of the flat I share with my beloved fiancé I know exactly where we are in the geographical sense and I love living here it’s spacious accessible with fantastic travel links to everywhere we need to go to…it’s perfect and is a great foundation for laying down … Continue reading Not greaving just re inventing

So it’s December and everywhere you go the commercial aspect is everywhere, shops filled with gift ideas and deals, festive adverts on TV and music channels filled with Christmas carol shows….The most beautiful time of the year so they say, but is it? When I was a child I loved Christmas and being the only … Continue reading Not feeling the Christmas cheer

Having discovered my hidden feelings and their effects on me over time I began counselling with a Sence of urgency and enthusiasm.I had this crazy notion that I will find a quick fix for me grief and be able to live happily ever after as they say. I was not prepared for the routes this … Continue reading Peeling the onion can sting but the flavours are rich and deep

Over the last year and a half I have come so far and achieved a lot.Relaesing my second novel meant so much to me as I didn’t expect to be able to complete a second, and I didn’t expect to sell many of the first.All the more reason to be happy and enjoying life you … Continue reading My life is like a game of ten pin bowling

You can take a pain killer for a head ache you can put a plaster on a cut but dealing with a mental health condition is much more complex that just taking pill.Sometimes I feel like I need a degree in medicine to understand what’s happening to me. Some days it feels like I’m on … Continue reading Strength in numbers there’s no shame in sharing